(Originally posted on the Socials)
Alrighty, friends. It’s officially been 11 weeks since I had psilocybin treatment, so it’s update time!
In short, so far, so incredible. Exceeds expectations. Mind blown (probably literally :)).
My main goal with psilocybin treatment was to see whether I could reduce or even maybe eliminate my anti-depressant/-anxiety medications. Not because those medications were bad. I mean, they saved my life. But meds work until they don’t, necessitating a change every 3-4 years and suffering major depressive states during the 3-6 month switch to a new drug. It was exhausting, and I wanted off the hamster wheel.
Promising research indicates psilocybin can help combat Major Depressive Disorder, so, even though I was a True Believer in the Nancy Reagan Just Say No campaign (the 80s, man), I decided it was time. I went for it, grateful it’s legal in Oregon.
Following treatment, I stayed on my SSRI to see what Beth’s Brain was like with ONE change (psilocybin) at a time. Two weeks ago, a full two months after my “heroic dose” of ‘shrooms (my psilocybin therapist’s words), I decided it was time. I cut my SSRI out entirely. (Psst…my medical doctor is looped in on all of this.)
And now?
Oh my god, friends, I feel AMAZING. Like the combination of psilocybin + weekly therapy + the sun returning to the northern hemisphere is magic. I’m sleeping at night. SLEEPING. At NIGHT. Like other humans! Without Anxiety driving the bus. Without sleep aids. Anxiety, in fact, is mostly quiet. Sometimes for consecutive hours. And I didn’t know the absense of something could be so loud. So tangibly present. In fact, the loudest Anxiety gets is when I fear this level of peace won’t last, but I have an amazing therapist, so I’m working on that. 😉
[You can find the rest of my posts on Psilocybin Treatment on Facebook.]
(Photo is of wild ginger which I planted because I guess I’m a gardener now? And also a plant whose name I don’t know but is ALSO currently still alive, because I’m living in a fairy land of miracles and magic.)
